hearts and junk

so...once again i sit here pondering....

this time i ponder about why i ponder so much hahah no i kid i kid..

for real im thinking that i dont understand why people play with peoples emotions....why do boys play with girls hearts???why do girls play with boys hearts???why does anyone play with anyone elses heart???that is not very nice....

WHY are you going to let someone think you like them if you dont? id absolutetly hate having to go through that!!!!

i dislike disliking people but if anyone were to ever do that to me...i dont know i think i would definetly be very dissappointed and upset...

sometimes people lead people on without even noticing and yeah it sucks when you find out youve done that..ive done that and i feel real bad,....but i didnt do it on purpose..i didnt tell that person i liked them i was just being myself and they came to a conclusion..but its not the same as being told youre liked and junk and then being left there all stupid and heart broken or hurt or whatever...

why am i writing this???...cause i feel like it! hahah

just cause its on my mind and so that you can know not do this to me unless you want to get a beat down...hahaha yeah im small but you dont want to make me mad ahaha haha i can beat you all up ahah no i dunno im kidding..

anywho for your information....i dont mind not being unliked....its bound to happen...duh..!!!and i dont care...YOU DONT HAVE TO LIKE ME! so dont pretend to...id prefer you told me im lame and stupid or anthing in that line of insults.. than to be told a lie....be honest...its better that way...dont pretend to be someone you arent so that ill like you...i wont pretend im someone im not....im going to tell you things like i see them..im sorry if at times they might seem harsh but im not going to lie to you..so if you piss me off you will hear about it!!! haha

if i piss you off tell me ill do something to fix it or make it worse depends on my mood...im rarely mad...im usually indifferent..im very easy to please at times..i dont need much to be kept happy but that doesnt mean i dont like anything or to get things and to do stuff and stuff so yeah ...i dont know what else to write...

i got new shoes yesterday....

i want to learn how to play a song on the guitar. one is not enough..."i can tell that we are gonna be friends" i can play that i need someone to sing it....haha

i guess ive said enough for now....